As I type this post, I am less than 3 months away from turning 40 years old. The number doesn’t scare me, I certainly don’t look or act my age. But still, there is a small part of me, or parts rather, that are becoming dirty little reminders. My knees make a lot more noise than they used to. My face isn’t showing wear and tear, I am constantly mistaken for being younger but if I don’t stop being lazy with moisturizer and start investing in anti-aging products, that could change. Still, there are times that I feel beautiful and there are reasons that I am not afraid to turn 40.
When I turned 30 and had my last child, I told myself that I wanted two things by age 40, a tummy tuck and breast augmentation. Now before you judge, I don’t need implants. What I needed, what I have needed since I was 17, is a breast reduction. Those pesky body parts reminding me about how old I am getting? Yeah the one I left out was my BACK. I have been in pain since puberty and there is nothing I have wanted more in my life then to have normal sized “girls”. They are unsightly without a bra and they hurt my shoulders and back so much. The tummy tuck is because I have had extra skin on my belly since I had my first child at 19 and it is causing me issues now thanks to gravity. But for me the smaller chest is a surgery I would risk, just to be able to fit in clothes and not hate shopping because nothing fits.
Another thing that I recently did that made me feel even more beautiful is to color my hair bright colors and actually learn to apply my makeup.
I am no expert of course but when I have banging hair and great makeup I look like I am in my late 20’s. I am not superficial by any means but it does make me feel good when I am complimented. It doesn’t happen often in my small town so when I hear it, it does make me feel beautiful.
We are all beautiful, and as women, we put a lot of pressure on ourselves to keep up that beauty. I know for myself, I’ve been very okay with how my face looks. I have come to embrace my big nose. I don’t need to change my looks to feel better but I would be okay changing my chest size to help my back survive to 50.